Sometimes you just need to start with a blank slate and let whatever wants to come out come out. The hard part is letting it happen because you want to force it out so much. The trouble is that you don’t decide when inspiration will hit you. Just because you want to make something doesn’t mean you can. When you sit down and try to force some deep meaning into a hollow thing, you just end up making something you really have no affiliation with, or no real belief in. It’s funny too because I would rather use big words, and too many of them, than the right ones. To be honest it’s frustrating. I don’t know really, why I see certain things like TV and movies the way they are, and I don’t really understand how I see other things yet. Really, I don’t know if I ever will, but I do know that as long as I can just sit here and write, whether or not I feel like it, ideas will come. Faith in my God, and in Jesus Christ is very important to me. I haven’t had the experiences a lot of people have had with drugs or alcohol, but I have my sin. I have just as much cause as anyone to seek salvation. My mind is always in a fog, and rarely do I realize where I am and what I am doing. There is no “but” in that sentence. I’m tired of always trying to say everything in one sentence. From now on I want to say things like, “I am happy,” and be done with it. Simple is so much better. This seems more like a journal entry than writing for a short film. I’m just writing. After hearing everything George Lucas was saying today I am beginning to think again. I know of the one thing that keeps me from thinking. I am blessed and honored by my God to be what I am. I am a man made in his image, and He has burned within me a passion, and through Him only may I use it. It is so hard when there are so many distractions in the world. Things are happening to me now I would have never known. The ones I’ve stereotyped. The things I really have no grasp on until I’ve experience them. I say so much and I want to do it all, but I just feel like I’m not on the straight and easy path I was on when I was younger. I guess the words, “I don’t know,” can be substituted with, “Faith”. But I don’t know. I want my wild imagination back. I don’t ever want to run out of stories. I don’t ever want to stop believing. I pray Lord, please give me my mind back. I never knew. I am naïve. I’m not the man I thought I would be but I do not know if that is bad. I’m ready though. I am ready to be what You want me to be. I submit. Silence.